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title	Autoethnography of an International Student, a Former Korean Ice Hockey Player
author(s)	Doo Jae Park/ Na Ri Shin(University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign)
Keywords	autoethnography, enculturation, race, whiteness, structural theory of racism, ice
Abstract	This autoethnography is about a former Korean ice hockey player’s lived-experience while playing in an ice hockey league in the United States. I have been participating in recreational hockey league on weekends since 2015. As a researcher, I have encountered difficulty of enculturation regarding a stereotype of Asian men, masculinity, and socially constructed whiteness in the sport of ice hockey. This study utilized evocative autoethnography as a research method (Bochner & Ellis, 2016), which is a method adopting autoethnographic first-person voice. I tried to articulate what the cultural barrier was and how it was related to the language barrier I experienced. I then explained how I have internalized racialized and gendered cultural perceptions against Asian men to understand socially constructed racism in the United States. To undergird this autoethnographic study, I utilized Bonilla-Silva’s structural theory of racism (1996,2017). Findings revealed that first, the language barrier was the most prominent aspect for me to approach the American culture. Because of the lack of English proficiency, I had been alienated from American teammates, then been isolated from everyday life in the American society. Second, whiteness and masculinity that have been socially constructed in the American sporting culture silently governed my lived-experience in and outside of the ice arena, because whiteness and masculinity were activating under the surface of everyday life. Third, internalized whiteness generated “White Habitus (Bonillar-Silva, Goar, & Embrick, 2006),” and (re)produced racial prejudice against nonwhites inside myself.
file	질적탐구3(2)_6박두제신나리.pdf